Daves Memorial

Sweet brothers

Myrna's family

Daves Project

Dave and Myrna's legacy

Pioneer Trek 2011

best trek family, Netherlands

Pa Holman and Sagey

Our Trek Family

Sage, And Jordan and Landon

I had the absolute best time! For all those who doubted me, I did it. Went 3 days without Diet coke, slept outside, no shower, walked 27 miles while pushing a hand cart, and Loved it. Seriously one of the best experiences of my life. I fell more in love with my husband (if that is possible), what a guy! I am so impressed by him, it is not even funny. He is so willing to help me every day pull our hand cart and do more than his share! I am also so grateful for all my blessings, cars and air conditioning and good shoes and beds and and and! Sage was such a trooper and the kids in our family inspired me! I learned being mentally strong is more important than being physically strong. Finishing something is great for your self worth, and believing in something is everything!!! The best part was I surprised Brett, and myself!

surprise!!!

Happy 15th Birthday

This is what your daughters face looks like

when you give her Taylor Swift tickets for her birthday!!!

This is what her friends faces looked like when they found out they were going too!

My awesome niece Heather, hooked me up with the tickets. She made the impossible happen. The tickets went on sale friday and she got a pre sale deal the wed. before!

The best part of this day, was that Sage was convinced I hadn't made her a cake. She kept saying "Mom what are you making for my party", and I just acted like "oh Sage we will just have ice-cream. Sage actually thought I had blown off the one and only daughter I have, ha,ha,ha... She even offered to make brownies for the party. lol

Mother daughter time

Sage and I had a little weekend away from the boys. The trip to Ogden was a nice little break from the day to day cleaning, carpooling, and baseball that I call life. Sage had a convention and competition in Ogden. So we left Friday and drove through a snow storm for a great dance weekend. The convention was amazing and the talented dancers and teacher we are exposed to in Utah is unreal. Their team did very well in the Competition and got to perform in the closing ceremonies. The past week was a stressful one, Sage had to make the hard choice to either try out for Drill or Cheer, and ended up going with drill (not a popular choice at Murray High). Lots of tears shed over the thought of doing something without her friends. She made the Drill Team and is excited about her choice. She loves to dance and it shows, she worked her butt off all week at Drill tryouts and then Danced for over 15 hours Friday and Saturday. I am so proud of Sage and the little lady she is, she handles hard situation with a maturity that is far beyond her years. Wish I was more like her, hmmmm

Here we go again

Competition season is here... So for the past ummm lets just say FOREVER! We have been a dance family. Even before my little dancer was thought of we were a dance family. I would say since I was about 15 years old Every spring I have been spending most of my time at a dance competition somewhere. So take a deep breath and enjoy. Last weekend UDA preformed at Star Power competition, and they were amazing. I love the mother daughter bonding time that Sage and I get out of it. Sage always brings such an sweet elegance to the stage. She is definitely not the star of the show, but always has a grace that I love to watch. Sad for me to think this might be her last year on a competition team. Ugh, High School.... Blah

I would love to freeze her at this age and avoid the boy problems, heart breaks, and all that goes along with my sweet daughter growing up! Another little proud moment we had last weekend was, Sage was asked to speak in stake Conference. She did Awesome! I was so scared for her, but this girl amazes me!!! She spoke to more than 700 people at the General session of Stake Conference on, Preparation brings Blessing. She made us so proud. That day she was walking around on cloud nine! She had so many people that boosted her self esteem... Some good friend even baked her a cake that said Queen of conference. Super great weekend for the Holman Family.

Does any one even care...

Today I have been thinking about good friends, friends I have had for years and years. My family and neighbors, and thinking how life sure gets in the way of these relationships sometimes. People are busy, busy with their own lives and their own families and schedules and kids. How do we ever keep up on old friendships, maintain relationships with family members and make new friends?

One of my very best friends in the world, I have completely lost touch with. We worked together for 7 years had 3 babies together, gave each other baby showers and knew every detail of each others day. How did this happen? We vowed when we stopped working together that no matter what we would never lose touch. I would go a couple months calling then texting no answer, then getting pissed. Eventually finding out she had been going through Hell. How could I not have known? We just lost touch. She and I have since talked and really now I know it was just to painful to tell someone she talked to every 6 months or so she was getting divorced. Ugh, and still I feel bad for her and I feel bad for me that we could not go through that supporting each other.

So many of my old friendships seem to be falling away due to life and the business of it. I had a friend tell me the other day " No one is busier than me". I actually think that is the problem. We all feel like no one understands our life, our demands our struggles. I will tell a friend or family member, I have such a busy day, needing some concern or even just interest maybe a little validation and most of the time I get something like "try being me". I have for some reason had a hard time swallowing this lately.

My new found Yogic ways have lead me to ask the question, am I that disinterested in everyone else's life? Do I immediately turn the conversation back to "me". When I am at a family dinner do I listen or just talk. When someone announces something really cool am I genuinely happy for them?

Being a wife and Mom is very time consuming and of coarse this is were all our precious time should be spent. However finding a way to maintain good friendships with old friend who are very important too in something I am working on...

I wish I was better at getting together with friends, sisters, family, that I don't see every day. I know I can do better at reaching out to all the important people I feel so disconnected from. Yoga is about balance and I feel so out of balance right now. My goal is to reconnect with all the people I feel like our relationships are slipping away. I talked to my sweet husband about how I have been feeling and he had some great advice for me. Don't beat yourself up, reach out to those you feel disconnected from and don't waist time on those who "no one is busier than me friends"... I have a feeling we all fall into this category at times, but I am finding it so unappealing. The Enough about you lets talk about me's... I need spring!!! Tennis, Outdoors, warmth....

January Blah..

Today is the 4th of February, Thank goodness. So I must say not a fan of the cold, but since I am cold all the time anyway January just seems unbearable. Other than that had an incredible month. I have been doing my Yoga Teacher Training, and loving it. I thought I had forgotten how to learn, but it turns out my 42 year old brain still works. I love it! I love all of it! Just so interesting. I wish I could explain, but this is truly something you have to find out for your self. I, like most people was so disillusioned to think Yoga was just a good work out. I was so wrong, Yes it is a good work out, but so much more than that. It is a Path, a way of life, a peace and light that is so powerful. I am loving it! I feel like a kid in a candy shop, I just cant get enough. Chalkras, Anatomy & Physiology, Lesson Guides, Technique & postures, Methodology, Philosophy, History, ethics, Lifestyle... ahhh So when I say there is much more to it than I thought, A Yes. So I guess I beat this January Blah this year with January Bliss. Best part, I got a job. Its official I will be teaching at Local Yoga.